My child is dead. My pain is immense. Breathing is difficult. I have got so often tears in my eyes. Our home is an empty home. Hum, pictures and videos... It's hard to walk. My thoughts link me to the past. I am escaping from my responsibilities.

My love is immense. We shared great moments. I won't make him die a second time. Only the present is. He is now deeply in me. I have found a far greater kingdom that is to last for ever; Presence.

A part of me is saying: "this is the time to do it". […]